11.17.11
from day one, you caught my eye. within a week i was questioning myself, “do i really like him already?” questions im positive about now. you still make me laugh like you did from the start. you make me feel just perfect when im around you. i cant believe i threw it all away over something i was confused about. i let things get in the way of what i really want. i get scared to easily, and you scare me. we were so perfect and that made me question if what i felt was real. but now i know its real, bc this pain cant be from anything else but hurt and sorrow. something i never want you to feel again. if you just please give me a chance make it up to you and prove to you that i will never do anything like this again, i wouldnt let you down. i know i can be repetitive but i cant find the right words to match how i feel. just know im willing to do whatever it takes to make things right…at least try. im not sure, but i think in time things will just work.. me and you. just dont let me do this alone.
iloveyou baby.
I miss…
i miss my family. i miss my little sister following me around trying to be just like me because she looks up to me so much. i miss my little brother and how we used to wrestle and he could totally kick my ass if he wanted. i miss my mom…my dad. i miss my uncle and how he’s like a big brother that i never had. i don’t miss the fighting, the drinking, the smoking, and the house that’s falling apart. even though I’ve said i never wanna go back for those reasons, i would still go whenever i had the chance, just because i truly love them no matter what and I’m the big sister of the family.
i miss my damn family.
aren't you curious about strangers?
1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
dont matter
2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
no? i got my own shit thats amazing
3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
tucked in? not around me though.
4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
not yet.
5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
always, work makes me, lol.
6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
yes.
7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
swarm of bees.
8: Do you have freckles?
yeshh(:
9: Do you always smile for pictures?
eh,not always
10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
girls. lmao.
11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
really? maybe when i was 5?
14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
nope
15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
i dont chew, maybe nibble ;)
16: How many people have you slept with this week?
just the one and only ;)
17: What size is your bed?
Queen
18: What is your Song of the week?
just the way you are by bruno mars.... no idea why.
19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
no.
20: Do you still watch cartoons?
sometimes, i almost never have time for tv even though im doing this shit haha
21: Whats your least favorite movie?
not sure.
22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
i sure as hell wouldnt post this on the internet, bitches be stealing my shit : P
23: What do you drink with dinner?
nothing until im done usually
24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
honey mustard......dip everything in it.
25: What is your favorite food?
jeeze, the question that always gets me stumped lol
26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
theres 2. Big daddy and Ace ventura when nature calls.... BEST MOVIES EVER
27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
Brandonnnn<3
28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
for like a couple weeks? lol
29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
no thank you.
30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
uhmm, Kory im thinking.
31: Can you change the oil on a car?
hahahah, no
32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
.......gotta drive for that one
33: Ever ran out of gas?
again.. gotta have a car
34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
maybe turkey, on a grain bread with provolone cheese.. ranch dressing too lol
35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
depends what your in the mood for lol
36: What is your usual bedtime?
hmm. dont have one.
37: Are you lazy?
fuck yes
38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
lots of stuff? lol Jeanie, bunny, draculas wife.. i mean lots of stuff
39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
cant remember
40: How many languages can you speak?
1 considering we are in america and us americans speak english, everyone else needs to learn a 2nd language...being ENGLISH!
41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
yupp cosmopolitan!!!
42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
legos
43: Are you stubborn?
all the time
44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
...hmmm tough
45: Ever watch soap operas?
yeah when i was younger...weird i know
46: Are you afraid of heights?
kinda
47: Do you sing in the car?
all the time
48: Do you sing in the shower?
only if music is playing
49: Do you dance in the car?
sometimes....
50: Ever used a gun?
a bb gun
51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
damn, when i was a baby i think, unless you count school pictures
52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
they annoy me
53: Is Christmas stressful?
kinda but its a great time spent with family
54: Ever eat a pierogi?
yes.. dnt like
55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
apple
56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
vet...vet...wildlife rescuer... vet.. animal cop..vet.
57: Do you believe in ghosts?
of course
58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
omg yesh
59: Take a vitamin daily?
i have them to take...just never remember : /
60: Wear slippers?
not anymore
61: Wear a bath robe?
uh no?
62: What do you wear to bed?
tshirt and boyshorts alwyas
63: First concert?
warped tour 09
64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
hmm, walmart is great but target is also great, kmart is shit lol
65: Nike or Adidas?
addidas
66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
fritos
67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
sunflower seeds
68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
mope
69: Ever take dance lessons?
nope
70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
nope, hopefully something manly lol
71: Can you curl your tongue?
i can fold my tongue : P
72: Ever won a spelling bee?
never was in one
73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
yessssss
74: Own any record albums?
used to
75: Own a record player?
used too
76: Regularly burn incense?
not so much anymore
77: Ever been in love?
a few times
78: Who would you like to see in concert?
ADTR again
79: What was the last concert you saw?
warped tour 09 : /
80: Hot tea or cold tea?
cold tea unless im super cold or sick
81: Tea or coffee?
tea all the way
82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
?????
83: Can you swim well?
my gramps used to call me a lil fishy
84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
really? of course
85: Are you patient?
fuck no, lol its killing em to just finish this damn thing
86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
band
87: Ever won a contest?
hmm.. maybe...maybe not...
88: Ever have plastic surgery?
no
89: Which are better black or green olives?
black
90: Can you knit or crochet?
used to crochet
91: Best room for a fireplace?
living/family room
92: Do you want to get married?
of course
93: If married, how long have you been married?
94: Who was your HS crush?
....lots of ppl lmao
95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
no, maybe mind fuck a little hahaha
96: Do you have kids?
no
97: Do you want kids?
yes, 2
98: Whats your favorite color?
purple/magenta
99: Do you miss anyone right now?
ohh yesssss <3
so i feel like if my friend Brett ever drove… he’d totally be the one to do this. love it!!!! bahahaha!
Work.
First day back at work from my TN trip. It was HELL! like absolute shitty-ness. Lol. So effing busy. At least I Had my besties, Melinda, Kory, Sarah S, Kayla, and Aida. Sara K came to see me, Brittany came to see me(: ahh I love my friends. haha. But I’m home now, walked into my room and my beautiful flowers are blooming and making my room smell AMAZING! Lilies are by far the best flowers any guy can get his girlfriend.
